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Shade
02:21
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lyrics:
let it
pull me to graves i should have seen coming, some days i'm hardly me but what it is friend? how have you been? somedays i wake up and see static
blame the
acid, complex post traumatic dissonance, i feel it in my skin its
consequence for all the ways i've been runnin from who we were then
does it matter now?
most days i dont think it does
what the fuck, man? you deserve more than this, the years they pile on and never fucking quit. the trauma eats you up and everyone you love
they leave, i said they leave
does it matter now? most days i dont think it does
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Dreamland
02:14
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lyrics:
its not that simple, i dont know what it is now
to be without you
its awful lonesome, aint it, hun? to know that time will just eat you up
to know the distance and what it does to my memory is just enough
to keep me angry, fucking mad
i keep dream of getting back to you safely, but theres no path
i keep wanting to come undone, but the end in prospect is not enough
i keep dreaming of getting back to ya safely
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It's Just Like Bleeding
02:55
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lyrics:
i come apart
and its not that i dont feel safety, im just scared that it will escape me and ill never find it again
i come apart
and its not that easy to come back and its not like i wanna be that but i can hardly help myself
ill let it go
but i cant say that i wont find you buried deep in some unconscious part inside my head
let it end - if its all that you want just
let it end - if its all you can do now
or let it be, you know im not one to make a promise, but i sware that im trying
i come apart and its not cause you dont love me, its just hard to feel worthy, to feel enough, to know safety
and put it all together
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lyrics:
cold feet
i spent all my time arranging ways to get the fuck away from
feeling
like i have no control over the to and from, the come and go
but honey, i guess its just not that simple
(and i try to stay calm, i try - i try to stay cool but every fucking time i do it just)
let it
consume and use whats left of me
as long as theres not memory
of what we were then, of all that we have been, of all that you know
im not sorry
this is just how i react when all the love gets taken back and
leaves me
i mean what the fuck did you expect, some open arms in retrospect? come on
honey,
i guess its just not that simple
(and its not that i like being angry, its just that at a certain point its just all i feel and then i get here and just)
let it
consume and use whats left of me
as long as theres not memory
of what we were then, of all that we have been, of all that you know
if you'd like your welcome to call me back and talk me through every thought you have
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Still Frame
02:56
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lyrics:
they must be exhausted to ask how im feeling and pretend to care
wish they'd get to the point and just ask where you are
as if i would know, or if you'd call
god, their pullin me in and they're asking about all the things you did as if im not still bleeding out
i hate every single second when im back home
i hate everyone i love just a little
its still there in still frames, dont forget
im sure its easy just to leave me when im static
im sure its nothing but a bother just to think "if
theres harm done, should i run or fucking face it?"
i'd think twice, you know, but i would rather grow
than sit there, in still frames, don't forget
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6. |
Vessels of God
02:30
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lyrics:
i told danny she should leave and
i told everyone i love that ill see them when i see them but maybe
its too late
how did you move on?
when did you let go and did you
actually begin to heal when you got away from all the
all the time we spent,
all the love we'd give?
every moment is
etched inside my head
i want - i need - i want
all the grief to recede as i reach for progress
i told danny i would let go
but she said i dont
have to
i want - i need - i want
every moment i can manage to stay with me
as i grow
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Lonesome and Gravity
02:57
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lyrics:
i got caught in apprehension and it distilled into absence from my daily life
all i do is hide
im held captive by all the pain im in like i might deserve it
but i dont know
but i just might i guess i do
how fucking lonesome isnt it to go from
love to feeling lost
well i just panic descend into madness
when all the grief comes on and rots my head
how fucking tragic, to be afraid again
to watch the trauma tighten up its grip on me
i got caught in apprehension and it distilled into absence from my daily life
all i do is hide
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Hold The Space
03:18
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lyrics:
alright
im here im sorry i just got scared
i want i need to stay
alright
im done with running, in all my fear
id rather be present
and Feel It All
(if its all that you want just)
(if its all you can do now)
(if its all you can do now)
okay
i know you love me and youre still leaving
to hold both things is so freeing but its not fair
(does it matter now?)
but we're okay
(does it ma- ma- ma-)
and im just fine and im all fucked
and all this heart break is born of love!
(born of love)
(does it matter now?)
alright
were here, just hold me and tell me stories about all the things you want for me and dont stop talking and tell me slowly
alright
it hurts, its holy, the grief is never fucking ending
we're here, its safe, theres space so lets just try to
Feel It All
(i keep dreaming of getting back to ya safely)
and i'm so happy you walked with me all the way here.
"i just want to let you know how much you
changed me."
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Discussing the Sun is the creative center between Holy Kerouac's Mars, and Leave Nelson B. Both Currently reside on either
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